the healing
心灵的愈合
anonymous/佚名
the shock of events of the past 30hours overwhelmed jim all at once.his body felt numb，and while the world was moving along，he felt removed from it.
jim and his wife，connie，had just lost their beautiful four-month-old son.pre-liminary diagnosis6：sids，sudden infant death syndrome.
过去三十个小时所发生的一切将吉姆彻底击垮了。他感觉浑身麻木.虽然世界依旧未变，他却觉得自己已被世界抛弃。
吉姆和他的妻子康妮刚刚失去了四个月大的儿子——可爱的约书亚。医生初步诊断为“婴儿猝死综合征”。
thirty hours ago jim had driven to the baby-sitter‘s home to pick up joshua.it was a routine trip，like the one he made five days every week...until he arrived，and little joshua could not be awakened from his nap.the next few hours were a blur.wailing sirens，swift -moving paramedics ，critical-care doctors and reassuring nurses，holding hands and praying.a decision to life-flight joshua to children’s hospital 60miles away ...but all in vain.twelve hours later，the doctors had ex-hausted all attempts at revival.there was no brain activity.the decision was to turn off life-support.little joshua was gone.yes，they wanted all of joshua‘s usable organs to be readied for donation.that was not a difficult decision for jim and connie，a loving and giving couple.
三十个小时之前，吉姆驱车前往婴儿看护室去接儿子。这是吉姆除了周六周日外每天都要做的事。然而，当他到达目的地时，却发现约书亚已处于深度昏迷状态。接下来的几个小时是一片混乱：急救笛鸣响不停，急救人员、医生和护士们均投入到紧急状态中……医生们决定立即乘飞机将约书亚送到六十英里以外的儿童医院进行抢救……然而，一切都是徒劳的。十二小时后，医生用尽了办法，而约书亚的大脑依然没有任何反应。医生们只得取掉他身上所有维持生命的医疗器械，就这样，小约书亚走了。医生们希望能够得到约书亚的器官捐赠。而对于吉姆和康妮这对极具爱心的夫妇来说，这是他们义不容辞的事。
the next morning dawned.more decisions and arrangements.telephone calls and funeral plans.at one point jim realized he needed a haircut，but being new to the community，he didn’t have his own regular barber yet.jim‘s brother volunteered to call his hairdresser and get jim an appointment.the schedule was full，but after a few words of explanation，the salon owner said，“just send him right over and we’ll take care of him.”
第二天清晨，夫妇俩有了许多新的决定和安排——他们需要打电话安排葬礼。就在这时，吉姆想去理发，但是由于他是这个社区的新成员，还没有自己的理发师。因此，他的哥哥主动打电话给自己的理发师，替吉姆预约。那位理发师的日程表原本已排满了，不过，当理发店的老板听说了吉姆的遭遇后，立即决定：“现在就让他过来吧，我们会为他安排好一切的。”
jim was exhausted as he settled into the chair.he had had little sleep.he began to reflect on the past hours，trying desperately to make some sense of it all.why had joshua，their firstborn，the child they had waited so long for，been taken so soon...he had barely begun his life...the question kept coming，and the pain in jim‘s heart just enveloped him.he thought about the words spoken by the hospital chaplain.“we don’t fully understand what part we have in god‘s plan.perhaps joshua had already completed his mission on earth.”those words didn’t ease the bitterness that was creeping in.
吉姆坐在椅子上时，早已精疲力竭了。这几天，他始终没怎么睡觉。他开始回想起过去几十个小时里发生的事情，试图把整件事情想个明白。为什么他们在等待了那么久之后才得到的第一个儿子这么快就离开了他们……小约书亚的生活甚至还没有开始……问题一个接一个地出现，痛苦几乎将吉姆吞噬了。他突然想起了在医院时，牧师曾说过一段话：“我们并不明白自己在上帝的计划中扮演什么样的角色，也许约书亚已经完成了他在人间的使命。”可是，这些话根本无法减轻吉姆内心的痛苦——痛苦仍在一点点地吞噬着他。
the hairdresser expressed her sympathy，and jim found himself telling her all about the events of the last 30hours.somehow it helped to tell the story.maybe if he told it enough times，he would gain some understanding.
as jim mentioned the organ donations，he looked at his watch and remembered what was happening 60miles away...where he had said good-bye to his beloved joshua a few short hours earlier.“they are transplanting one of his heart valves right now.”
吉姆将自己的不幸遭遇告诉了理发师。他似乎觉得将这一切说出来能够使自己舒服点儿，或许多说几次，痛苦就会减少一些。
当吉姆提到将约书亚的器官捐赠出去的事情时，他看了看手表，想着六十英里以外正在发生的事情……那里正是他与心爱的约书亚作别的地方。“现在，他们正在将他的心脏瓣膜取出来。”
the hairdresser stopped and stood motionless.finally she spoke，but her voice quivered and it was only a whisper.“you‘re not going to believe this...but about an hour ago the customer sitting in this chair wanted me to hurry so she could get to children’s hospital.she left here so full of joy...her prayers had been answered.today her baby granddaughter is receiving a desperately needed transplant...a heart valve.”
jim‘s healing began.
理发师听了他的话立即停了下来，站在那里一动不动。过了好久，她才再次开口了，她用一种颤抖着的、近乎耳语的声音说：“这听上去也许使人有些难以置信……不过，就在一个小时以前，同样坐在这把椅子上的顾客希望我能够替她快点剪，因为她急着要去儿童医院。她离开的时候满心欢喜……她对我说，她的祈祷应验了。今天，她那个还在襁褓中的孙女要接受一个迫在眉睫的手术……移植一片心脏瓣膜。”
吉姆心灵上的创伤开始渐渐愈合了。（未完待续）